*nods head in a barely perceptible affirmative, leaning his forehead against Dean’s, drawing calm and composure into his quickly beating heart* Yes. I would like that…Oh…*his heart speed up a little, and he placed his hand over Dean’s* Dean, you…nothing will happen to me. And so long as that is true, nothing will happen to you, either. *he sighs, but maintaines eye contact* I am not so quick to give up those I love either.*tilts his head, oblivious to Dean accidental suggestion, and looks closely at the hunter, and his new, strange behavior. Places a gentle arm on his shoulder* If that is where you would be comfortable. *After a second* Are you sure you are…alright?*stiffens briefly in surprise, then kisses back, gently, cautiously, applying slight pressure toDean’s hand. He angled himself up, eyes sliding closed**blushes bright red at the sudden intimacy, and touches his own lips as if they were to be thanked. Then he glanced over shyly to Dean, and noticed his predicament* Oh, um… Here. *grabs one of the flimsy paper napkins from the bag and hands it over, still red and flushed*Oh, yes. I forgot. *sheepishly begins to eat, making quick work of his burger and being very neat, because it was the Impala, and there were no crumbs in the Impala. * Mmh, *hums appreciatively* I had forgotten how…satisfying that is.I would…*smiles awkwardly* if I knew what that flow was. *looks back down to his forgotten food and then the window, where barely anything was visible against the darkness*No…*glancing down at their hands and speaking offhand, almost to himself* Though I expected you to have more experience than I…
…oh..I see…*swallows awkwardly keeping his hand on Cas’s, then looking at him again*..well..I don’t know a lot about it…but…I guess we could..just go with the flow…don’t we?..*giving him an awkward half smile, his cheeks flushing red, it was obvious just how nervous he was (fuck you’re useless dude..shut the fuck up!)*
…aren’t you gonna eat?..*a little nervous still just points at the food with his finger never letting go of Cas’s hand*..it’s gonna get cold..
*cuckling at the sight he reaches his free hand to Cas’s face wipping some crumbs from the corner of his mouth, it had been an unconcious movement, and now he wasn’t sure what to do with the crumbs on his thumb (eat them..but.. if you do you’ll seem like you’re teasing..but if you don’t…it is as if you didn’t want to touch him..fuck! you’re not helping!...hey I’m doing my best!)* eeh…*looking at his thumb his face was bright red and he was obviously nervous and almost lost in what to do next*..I..u-uhm..
u-uh..yeah..*clearing his throat slowly*t-thanks….*just staring at the napkin for a moment before grabbing it, and wipe his thumb, clearing his throat again, this was just..awkward, he couldn’t stop thinking about something since his finger touched his mouth, he just stared at the angel leaning in to kiss his lips softly never letting go of his hand*
*leaning in a bit to deepen thekiss, he breaks it after a moment, looking down his face flushed red* I..sorry, I had an urge hehe..*clearing his throat, it was already dark outside, and he could see his own breath in front of himself, it was getting cold* hey.. it’s getting really..cold here…want to go inside..or maybe we could get into the back seat to warm up..eeh.. and I..eeh *(jesus that sounded horribly WRONG, Dean you’re a shit head haha..shut up!! you’re not helping!)* Eeeh..shit.. that sounded better in my head..*his face was completely red his hands were sweating and his knees trembling, it was just everything that new to him*
..yeah..I’m…ggh *sighs defeated, and then looks at Cas again* I’m just…afraid..no.. terrified..everytime I get attached to something..something bad happens and..*reaching his hand to Cas’s face cupping his cheek* I would give anythin to avoid it…I..it just seems..so unreal..I don’t even…fuck..I’m not making any sense *shaking his head he just laughs awkwardly the blush in his face never faddin*..I…I just love you too much..fuck..
…*keeping his eyes on Cas’s, he leans in for another kiss, soft on his lips barely brushing against each other, he breathes deeply, feeling his scent, he spoke against the angel’s lips*…what do we do then?….you wanna stay here?…